=(

feeling so terrible now..

the head is like gonna explode..

=(

20091106

in life..

i often give in..

i often make the initiative..

i often bear with all sort of nonsenses..

i often extend the help to anyone in need..

i often take on the role of mr nice..

but..

there will always be a need for the switch of roles..

giver.. receiver..

active.. passive..

am realizing many people around take my kindness for granted..

so either u play with the game rules, or simply get the hell out of my life..


NO ONE OWE U A LIVING.

20091103

i cannot believe this..

yesterday, i lost my mobile charger..

today, i lost the thumb drive..

this is very bad..

i am not a careless person.. till lately..

i have no idea why is this happening..

freak!!! period!!!

26102009

i wake up today, alone.
the rain is pouring outside.
the coldness penetrate thru my skin.

she left, while this world still continue spinning.
i am not sad.
yet, its the disappointments in life pulling me down.

tears..
for the first time, i realised it wouldn't help at all.

a day before my b.day.
but i just wanna hide myself.

the remaining journey,
i need the strength to carry on..

20091012

the new term started.. somehow i am feeling different from the last one.. maybe because the fd people are missing on the first lesson. maybe the hype of being back to skool after a hiatus of 5 years is gone.. or it could be the addition of new students to our original class disturb the flow..


and i woke up this morning with some cold sweat.. i didn't have nightmare.. while i could strongly sensed that the loneliness is killing me softly..


shower. and skool.

get spicy!

Girl Power!

my all time favourite girl band!

during my era.. they were the biggest thing..

baby bonus.

another newborn to re-affirm my status of UNCLE.

for once.

i don't like to share.

but just for once, i did.

and perhaps over-done.

doubt there will be a next one.

i am putting a full stop to it after this entry.

lead on this journey.

smiles~

bring the smile back.

hearts jy~

my thoughts are cleared.

the smile is back!

i cannot imagine how terrible my life will be without you being there.