thurs-sun, 27/08/04-29/08/04
*my uncle's funeral*
reached "de jiao hui"(a taoist temple) at kluang ard 6pm. tis is whr my uncle's wake will be hold for 3days 2nights. the whole atmosphere was so sorrow. his looks in d coffin was so much diff from how he looked like when i juz saw him on tues evening, back den, he was alreadi transfer that day from malacca mahkota hospital(private hospital) to malacca general hospital(government hospital) as d doctor at mahkota advised us to bring him out of hospital. what it simply means: no more hope, juz depend on how long he can drag. when i hold his hand n tok to him, he was alreadi not able to speak, his eyes juz kept looking ard, tears flooding his eyes. almost all relatives present cried. i find d whole process of my uncle's death to be a beri 'funi' one. haiz, i dunoe how to place in words here, mayb u can find me den i tel u in person. wat i can conclude at d moment is, life sux!!! two tings to mention. 1st, malacca mahkota hospital did nuting to improve my uncle's condition, yet at d end of his 22days of stay, d bill sumed up to RM60,000! reali wanna
thruout d 3days, i saw alot of unfamiliar faces, mainly all my distant relatives n d elders. my mum n other 8 aunts cried d most. i oso shred my tears a few no. of times. oso, i finali get to see my 'beloved' cousin, aidong. he is of same age as me but borned in april, thus making him d elder one. i last saw him was 3-4yrs back. gosh, he has growed so much taller than me n getting more yandao+stylish leh. find our relationship to be more buddy than cousin. d cremation took place at "wang fu sha zuan" located in kulai. it was an one hr+ journey frm kluang.
it was agreed among my aunts tat my uncle's tablet to be placed at "de jiao hui". d ancestors' tablet was oso 'invited' frm my uncle's hse to d temple. all d families gathered at my uncle's place to take a rest b4 separating to head home. i went into my uncle's room, saw d decoration stil remain d same as how it used to be when i cum over to play during childhood. he stil kept d stones which i picked n gave to him as momentous when i was young. i cried once again at d sight of it. i took d stones back to sg.
from my uncle's death n d funeral, i saw, hear n noe alots of tings. tere is stil a large portion of what i wanted to say tat i didn't write it out. n it is tis portion tat make me feel so sad n breakdown. juz like how i feel during d last stage of my dad's life. once again, to all, i might look extremely fine, slacky n normal when u saw me but deep inside me, i feel reali scared, confused n dunoe wat to do or say. i am juz a nobody. all i ned now is someone, be it a ger or guy, who i can confide n can hug me tight n give me a shoulder to cry on. mayb i am askin for too much, but i reali ned to vent out all my bottled feelings so at least i can go on for a longer road.
mon, 30/08/04
*frens r d best*
msn xueying, asking her out for a chat after her movie trip w rach n cole. had a simple dinner at d vegetarian stall at loyang point. meet her at tm interchange n c rach taking bus23 home. ordered some drinks at mac n settled down for a chat w xue n cole. tok mostly craps but at least tat makes me feel more better n cheerful. ha~ me n cole was bhind linus n his stead while queueing for drinks. oso saw my sec sch frens, yunru+meijun+rachzhang. tok abit w meijun b4 goin home. found out tat feichuan goin ns in 2 wks time. surprising~ walked to busstop w cole, tok more crap. reali feel much much better after all d chats. 10s frens~
tues, 31/08/04
*opps, i didn't go back*
zhihong sms me, asking whether going back to dmn for teachers' day today. but me ended waking up at 1+pm. 1st time since grad from dmn tat i didn't go back for teachers' day celebration. mayb not goin back tere anymore. haiz, dunoe.
*food sux~*
was planning to go airport for dinner but last min changed to go downtown east instead. ate at d foodcourt tere, food sux~ not going back tere to eat anymore. hmm, wildwildwet didn't open today, so cun see ppl having fun inside. wanting to go tere for some fun but muz train up my body 1st so when tk off shirt wun look to ugly. haha~
thurs, 02/09/04
*love u zai. muackz~*
was checking my mails online at 1+am n zai suddenli sms me, saying tat he forget to reply me two days ago. oh, i oso den rmb i got sms him asking him to pei me tok on phone as i was feeling bad, but he didn't reply. so we had a chat on phone. tis boy arh, he was working at 7-11 n can spend d whole nite toking w me, leaving his partner to tend d shop, damn song rite? everytime on phone w him, we can reali tok anyting under d sun, he is reali my one n only buddy in life. zai, u rocks~
fri, 03/09/04
*time for me to go?*
went to elias mall to buy 'supper' home ard 7+pm. n guess hu i saw at tere? bryan chong~ ha. tis guy arh, from far can see his eyes looking at me from a corner. like 'diao'ing at someone. but cun blame him lah, his eyes since borned is like tat de lor. juz hope he dun get into fight tat often. kez~ since d start of tis yr, i have been going thru alot of ups n downs in my life, n get to meet a lot of my long-lost frens. mayb tis is a sign informin me tat my life is cuming to an end soon.
sat, 04/09/04
*mash potatoes r d best*
mum actualli planned to go bedok reservior to see a chinese sinseh to massage her back n had our dinner tere. but she wanted me to go buy 4D 1st at west plaza. so ended up not going bedok n i was told to 'da bao' dinner home. hmm...me went ntuc 2days ago n bought a packet of instant mash potatoes at $3.15. got 10 small packets inside. made one n tried. find it to b rather tasty, quite similar to 7-11 maggi mash potatoes, juz only lack of d gravy. yumyum~
sun, 05/09/04
*kovan so nice~*
went to heartland mall-kovan to haf dinner + kaikai. ate fish soup at d hawker centre, quite nice. shop ard heartland mall, n saw jesscia (my ifc polymates) working at a handphone shop on level 3. didn't bought anyting for myself. mum got some yummy durains for us at cold storage. went back to hawker and had a bowl minced meat noodles for supper. saw sony ericsson t630 selling at $168 w 2yrs contract by starhub. wow, a sharp drop as compared to what m1 is offering. so angry w m1, when r dey goin to lower their prices?
tues, 06/09/04
*i miss u dad*
guessed wat? i dreamt of my dad last nite. tis is d second time since he passed away tat i dreamt of him. i didn't get to speak to him, but i managed to hug him. d feeling of hugging him is so good. i am stil a little boy aftall. i reali want some love, love from my dad. he is reali a responsible dad, he got all his stufs arranged n done b4 his condition got worse. i admired him. i love u dad~
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