against. my silhouette

*low lah~*
damn it! i am feeling damn low now. dunoe why, these few days i am down wif moodswing again. sudenli happy, suddenli sad, so damn moody!! frens at sph were wonderin wat happened to me. i did someting real bad juz now at office. i threw(i realli mean threw, wif a loud bang~) a stack of forms on my frens table n drop a line: ot today. guessed dey were taken back by my action. i am soli, i didn't mean it. juz dunoe wat get into me again. tos stupid thots of y living in tis world came back. my future, my life, my frens, my family...i am so damn fan now~ everyting so messed up in mind. dun tink i can ever get all tis settle nicely. tink reic dun belong to mine liao. dunoe. i reali wanna cry now. haiz~
*alone, again*
returned to sg on sun nite, alone. mum n sis still in msia. bought onli a tee. rushed home via cab to catch d 9pm , ch u show. got d xie weichoong in it. mon(06/12), meetup wif reuben at pasar malam beside wsd to jalan aft work n managed to get someting for xue.
*mediabiz*
heard over ufm1003 tis morning, wenhong was saying tat sphmediaworks' staffs r recieving d letter today to notify whether dey get to stay in d company or got to leave. expected alot ppl to be at sph, esp d stars. saw guoliang, ann poh... at lvl4 canteen. dey look kind of low n sad. reali feel bad for them. but wat can i do? watched news at 10, ch i is cfm to cease on 1st jan 05 while mediaworks is retrenching 204 staffs including artists like chen huihui, ann poh. haiz~ muz read tml pps to noe more.