against. my silhouette

*rp...*
pengz~ realli nvr feel so bad ever since my dad & ah gu's death. now extremely in bad mood. mayb its true tat d higher d hope u wan to gt into sispec, d greater d disappoint when u fail to make it. tat's y i not feeling gd at all. d moment i open d miw page, 'REGIMENTAL POLICEMAN' came slapping on my face. ouch~ its hurt... den loggin on 2 msn, gt to noe more of my pltmates posting. i went huh? wat is boatman & ferry terminal operator? sianz~ i noe some guys kana rp@changi air base while i am d only person kana changi naval base. den when i noe ppl lyk han get to go sispec i went...wtf~ gosh, sir nicholas, u bluff me, 3sg angus, u too. say i wil kana sispec, liars~ blahx... but 1 pt 2 mention, bmt reali cr abt qualification, even u do damn well for ur soc, ippt, den dun f cr, u still go sispec, even u r a big slacker@bmt. argh... reali feeling damn vex & sad. real sad. my detail of posting...

SAF BMTC ePosting Order
NRIC: S8536003E Name: TAN HOCK HENG

Comd SAF BMTC congratulates you for your successful completion of the BMT.

Your Posting Order is listed below:

1. You are posted to CHANGI NAVAL BASE.
2. Your vocation is REGIMENTAL POLICEMAN.
3. Your are to report to: Changi Naval Base, GUARD Room.
Reporting Date/Time: 20/06/2005 at 0800 hrs.
Person to report to: Chief Clerk
Contact Number: 65444549
You are required to report in smart no.4 uniform (PES E recruits to be in No 3 uniform), except for those assigned to Police Force.
4. Special Instruction: You are required to bring along your duffle bag / field pack complete with the SAF issued items given during BMT. You are expected to stay in.

... i now reali feel lyk cryin... reali damn sad... f bmtc, f saf... & f myself for once again a failure...