happy meal?

i thought probably everything is coming to an end.


but hell NO!!


gosh...

what's going wrong?


FUCK LAH!!

i don't know. don't force me please. i really don't know. i am just seeking for a simple thing. tell me that i am not asking for too much. i am sorry if i did.

我要快乐。

我要快乐。
安静一点。
我不知道快乐，会在谁身边。
当你看见快乐，请轻拍我肩。
我要快乐。

asdfg..

now i want to sleep. but am having things unsettled.


my bed is in a huge mess. =(


i conclude i am a big-hearted person by nature, and i am still the same all these while. but how come there are people associating me with selfish-ness. ok, i don't really care.


guess i am more concern on why some of my friends are so darn insensitive to my feelings? try tapping closer to my frequency lah. am i asking too much?


think a cold shower will make me feel better.


lastly, to those people who have been posting crappy comments here. u can totally forget about doing so. i do moderate them. so get yourself a life somewhere else.

asdfg.

the worst time is happening, again.


my mind is running wild. in an unmanageable state.


i am telling myself, "please go on bed and sleep."


but i just can't lah.


this nonsense feeling is killing me..


what is this freaking situation.


asdfg.

am A.

i know this is not a sensible thing to do. but i just have to speak/write/text/blog/get this out of my mind.


i am A.


period. till i get my good night sleep tonight.

just 'unlucky' for the time being..

hmm... actually before i started to write this post. i got a few other things in mind that i wanted to blog about. but, a phone call from aczl, make me decided to drop the subjects to another time. apparently, this good buddy of mine is going thru the 'unlucky' period. i quoted his words,

"..i cannot do bad/evil things. as whenever i did any of such things, i will be caught and be punished..."

well, i can understand his feelings. its like normally he does not commit such sins but once he does, he will unlikely to get away without serving any punishments. while opposed to those people who are committing sinful 'crimes' everyday and not being justified.


not too sure what will be the outcome for him. but there's one thing aczl can be assured, u will have my support. =)


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and talking about AWARE saga. i am glad that the association is back in the safe hands.

Booo to the intruders.

moment of happiness.

am i in a state of happiness?


gosh, i have no idea.


perhaps i am really feeling so good after catching up with my wonderful friends lately.


ok, i shall call this, "moment of happiness". =)



and i got my fix at Uniqlo. love the cutting of the jeans. hope it wouldn't shrink after washing. =Z

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有着一丝的睡意。却不知为何，很突然一股莫名的冲动，想好好地和大家说：我好像没事了。也许从一开始，根本就不曾有事发生。


噢，原来自欺欺人是这么一回事。


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最近天气似乎有一点闷热。是夏天来了吗？


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电脑银幕右下方显示着：4.44 AM 。


iTunes 重复播放着孙燕姿的《我也很想他》。
曾经，我的心也和这歌名一样。
但。过去了，过去了。


生日快乐。


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现在的天气。。。

现在的天气：雨过天晴？


不。


应该是持续阵雨吧。

害怕孤单，却选择寂寞。

i don't really adore how things work in this world.


humans just take things for granted, its so annoying.


guess i am destined to live by myself. even when i am afraid of loneliness.

Truth

"we want the absolute truth, but sometimes, we have to ask ourselves, are we able to handle the truth."

心情不好。

正在经历一段可以说是很简单但却演变成很痛苦的过程。


抱歉，没法在这里和大家分享。


选择不与友人倾诉这件事，是不希望把不必要的烦恼带给他们。但，也许是自己更不愿把那从未见天日的内心赤裸裸地放到台面上。


对于那一、两个真心愿意聆听的挚友，虽然我没说些什么，但，谢谢。


已经走得很累了。但，还得继续下去？


曙光？逆光？


晚安。

its been 2 years.

i received this text message in the morning.
realising its been 2 years since i was discharged from the service.


sometimes i do miss the green days.

the first post of moo year.

on the eve of chu xi, i was at airport sending royston off. gonna be another 6 months before we meet again.





i woke up today with this blockage on my right nostril. i was deprive of half the oxygen intake for the whole day, even as i am typing this entry, the nose is still blocked. not a very good start for this ox year uh?

i began to lose the hype about lunar new year. new year cookies, pastries and ba gua is now not a must for me anymore. those that know me well enough should know how important ba gua is to me during the festive. this could also be a sign indicating that i am losing interest in leading this life. oh well, maybe not. i just have to re-organise my thinking.


the plan is set for later. i will be off to Kulang over chu yi & first half of chu er. hope i could satisfy my crave for chendol at there.


to all peers, Happy Lunar New Year.

huat arh!mooooooooo.......

=)

...stick to the plan

lesson learnt today:
never assume.
always plan before action.
and more important, STICK TO THE PLAN.

Perspectives

i came to realise its good to release thoughts that are 'bottled' in my mind. immediately when i reached home, i text kinnard, telling him how bad i felt after objecting in his buys. i recall using some 'horrendous' adjectives to describe the belt. argh..

adam, how could u have forgotten the term, "Perspectives".

i know i should not be pissed.

this is not the first time. and definitely not gonna be the last.


i am somewhat pissed for now. whenever i set some time out and try organise something. i hope at least people would have the basic courtesy and give a reply. a simple 'yes, i will be there.' or 'no, i can't make it'. that's all needed. you don't need to come up with some grandmother story, telling me this and that, i wouldn't award you with an A for the amazing story telling skill. while some can be even better, saying they can't make a confirmation on their attendance, and will get back to you "SOON". ok, the word "SOON" is so being mis-used over and over again. till the appointment date become history and another few years down the road, not a single word is heard from them regard that "SOON". but when people just treat my email as 'oh-another-junk-mail', that totally turn me off. and i am sure, when the next time they text me a sms for dinner, etc. i will simply do likewise, ignore.


these people just don't expect to be given any kind treatment. well, till they decide to do something on that, else.. enough said.