against. my silhouette

juz had my lunch at short circuit wif xueying. we tok about my telsys proj, esp the meeting portion. i hate tis sort of feeling. tings are not in my way and i juz seem to get more and more fucked up. now in free access lab, rachel is sitting two places away from me, but we are like almost total strangers. what can i do? my mood-swing start to haunt me again, making me having tis hatred feeling. i lost control of my feeling once more. i really wondering what on earth is my mind thinking of. i need a change, a break, a new life!!!!!