life. it's sux. hate to live.
really dunoe wat i am seeking in this world.
do i live for myself? or do i live for others? or isit for both? argh... i dunoe.
see, again the question aka problem is not answered aka solved. so it shall be 'snowball' till next major moodswing. *ahem.
*ahem*
ok, this is a surprised add-on to the entry. according to kenneth's blog, jingneng(my ifc coursemate)'s dad passed away not long ago(shld b lastlast fri). yet, i was unaware of it, neither my af. although no very close to him but we once did project tgt. hei jn, so sorry abt the death of your dad. hope you can be strong & live out of it. i know how you feel, i lost mine too. it seem to be easy to simle & say i will be strong, but the process is not easy. till now, i still dream last night that my dad is still alive & my family is happily living tgt. i really get speechless & hate myself so much for not spending time with him. nvr will i gt such a good, responsible, hardworking father. i really misses you dad. i really feel so helpless w/o you.
*r/s*
ok, i shall b more open to this one now. dar, i know its tough for both u & me, esp for u. i really understand your feelings & thoughts. honestly, i feel the same for the past week. future for us is so blur & uncertain. i dun wan u to be unhappy or feeling gulity abt this anymore. i know u feel the same for me. hope we can be good buddies for life. but still, i want to say, i will cherish u forever. to my most precious dar, thanks for the every little things u done for me. love u...
quoted from someone's blog:
"everything has an ending point...and then just kiss and say goodbye"
*superstars*
weilian won. surprised? no. not at all. ever since he make it to the semifinal, i already sensed that something is wrong. a blindman who needs someone to guide his way up the stage can be a superstar? erm...no, i am not against those who are handicapp but like many others, i am just voicing out that a real superstar is one that can suit or statisfied the public with not just only singing but also dancing, acting..... the late anita mui & a*mei are two excellent examples. still, from such nation-wide event, the tv station, mediacorp & relevant sponsers are the biggest winner, earning big bucks while the superstars-wannabe gaining a certain degree of fame within such a short period of time. the superstar-craze is set to go on for quite some time.
*redeye*
just read shin min daily and was surprised that the fig of 'redeye' illness for the past month stand at 1300. wow~ that is really alot. my company was not spared too. with at least over 15ppl down with this reddy illness. my buddy, yweeteng was having this bloodclog in his right eye, so damn 'erxin'. recalling back, the every last time i meet someone with 'redeye' was during sec4. benjin was then having a 'burned' night for his literture pps.
*urban warfare*
when i was told that we will be training in hdb estate for urban warfare, i didnt expect to be fighting in an once-occupied hdb flats @limchukang aka neo tiew village. the whole area is just no diff from normal hdb just that all are emptied. imagine shooting rounds & throwing thunderflash in the units whrby ppl r still living roughly abt 6 yrs ago. amazing is all i can describe.
*ippt*
shld i b statisfied w a silver+100bucks? guessed i shld. d sudden improvement of my chin-ups from
*ssc nite*
thot it will b fun but ended up juz lyk tos wuliao bbq i attended in d past. i was d last to arrived. even later den swo. haha, king liao. me simply juz joke ard here & there abit den mia to bowling alley w/o playing bowling. hope d next ssc nite will b much better, at least in d atmosphere by not having 3 bbq pits so seperated.
*section training*
had our section training @mandi area. rather juz beside seletar e'way. d only event that required us to get dirty w/o staying overnite. haha. went there early morning via tunnel as strike was the store party. saw rambutan trees & a little squirrel. so 'keai'~
*m203+gpmg+saw*
had a chance to fire all these weapons. kind of fun. had m203 @pasir lebar camp, which is so near to d 2nd link @tuas. den gpmg oso @temple hill near tuas. imagine blasting off shots downwards from a hill, damn cool. lastly was d saw firing @bukit timah range whrby monkeys r avaliable for free targets, jking lah. too bad, dun haf a chance to play motar & sar21.
*ndu*
national diving unit aka ndu. sound so scary. indeed, thier training is not ez. went to ndu agn for d 'bombs lesson' aka having a feel of how ndu is trained. thier hell-week training is damn 'xiong', seeing all d trainees walking towards d cookhse lyk wanting to collaspe anytime. doubt if i was inside, i could 'tahan' for long.
*fire-fighting*
see, being a sea soldier @cds is nvr ez. i need to oso learn how to put out fire & goin thru maze w an oxygen tank. lesson was held @scdf academy located in jalan besah near ntu. fun is d only adjective to use for both d training & instructors. only -ve pt is d cookhouse, so 'prison-type' lucki there is this canteen within d cookhse.
*chemical defence*
donning tat mask + doin d canister change is so damn 'mahfan'. for those who noe how chemical defence is like will understand what is mopp0-4. haha. had a pleasant course conducted @sembawang camp + d nice environment @saf yatch club.
*soc*
did soc test, but a surprising 9.33 timming. so lousy as compare to my bmtc. no more soc in my life animore. buai soc grd.
*ndp*
kk, i finalli understand d grandness of d parade. seeing d parade officer shouting d command, so nice & grand. but personlly think saf displayed too many of our weapons to the nation, that might lead to some terrorists' attack in sg.
*ah gu*
went to msia for ah gu's death anniversary. most relatives came. did a simple prayer. agn, i was d only youngster to b ard. nope, d rumour of aidong & his wife will cum is fake. return to ah gu's hse. still d same old place i rmb. d mango tree still bear mangoes. memories....
*aidong*
my cousin married. dunoe mention hw mani times in my blog leh. kk, will b d last time. didnt makan d dinner but attended d tea ceremony. quite boring as no very glam mah. oh, meetup w keimin aka my bmtc buddy for a movie @nite, den stayover his place. went back to sg alone. shopped @jbcitysq & bought 2 tops.
*af anniversary*
celebrated af anniversary @vienia, united sq on 27aug. d food nt very yummy. think was not a good one as i did a no. of stupid acts+got tings cropped up. haha. but still njoyed being w you guys, so poly life. hope d mooncake one will b more fun as tat reali mark our 1yr since we had d 1st gathering @cntown.
*baibai*
yesterday went to compass point with mum. its d 4straight weekend that i went to there. suddenli big aunt called to 'jio' us go river valley that temple to 'baibai' as its d last day of hungry ghost fest. meetup w aunt pauline&family @riverside pt for dinner. d riverside indo cruisine is nt bad. strolled to liang court w mum to see d new audio house b4 food was served.
*bookin-in*
yeah, finali update my past month activites in one-shot. feel so gd~ haha. tml having section live firing in safti live range grd. hope i will b back in one piece. go pack stuffs leh. ciaoz~
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