against. my silhouette

*blow-off*
let me say this for the last time..i am blowing off..its so senseless to communicate with your own batch of people..when you think/care/do so much for them..in return they assume you never spare a thought at all..jon msged me last nite..wanting juansheng and me to do helpout for this morning and open armoury myself..and kaizhong wanted all 4 of us who were activated over the weekend to go back for the last parade this evening..i give jon a call and make it clear that he should not touch js and me for helpout..but i eventually agreed to come back for the last parade..yet i realised i ought to have stand firm on my thoughts as kaizhong didn't even appeared at last parade like what jon told me that he will be present with platoon2 having full strength..all is bullshit..platoon2 sedat who were activated on sunday were not even needed to come back at all..and..kaizhong even allow zi'an and jieyuan to clear night's off w/o attending the parade..i really went crazy..i just receievd news that tml ippt lesson is cancelled and the new fucked-up oc wanted platoon2 to fall-in at quaterdeck by 7.50am for parade..all i can expect is another 'te-kan' session..why must things become like that..

*sicksicksick*
i am sick..went to polyclinc immediately after book-out on monday..the clinic was so messy..like wet-market..my right ear down with ear-infection..my uclers is growing larger..my thorat hurts..my foot-rot get so worst..even wearing socks..it will get wet..so damn grossed..somemore suffering from insufficient sleep..right now, my right ear is semi-deaf..having this painess that is damn irritating..

*life-story*
watch some tv programs..channel 8 was having this 'it's showtimes'..similar to japan's cult varitey show - 'zhao ji bian bian bian'..channel u showing 3 hunks, namely vincent ng, bryan wong and elvin ng doing excerises at siloso beach..elvin was damn shuai..channel 5 telecast a new series called 'life-story' whereby this episode is about chen weilian aka the winner of project superstar..so touching and motivating ..david aw who played weilian in the show was so ke ai..