against. my silhouette

*soc~*
had soc for onli 3 days within d week, nameli mon, tues & thurs. were given wed a day off due to our tiredness but we were kana 'tekan' on tues nite. rite aft ro, we spent almost 2hrs++ doin changing parades, push-ups, crunches, stand-by bed, stand-by area, marching drills. treated worst den a recuit. n d reason for being 'ill-treated' is: d area+toilet is not clean enuf. wtf lah~ @bmtc, stand-by was done lyk d most 3 times per week while @cnb, its done daily & cfm more den 5 times yet dey stil say not gd enuf. sianz~ back track to soc. misses d days back at taurus doin d soc w pti sofian & sir nicholas. had my beri 1st blister tat teared & blood started to 'spill' out...erm..okie lah, juz onli can c blood lah, not spilling out. kez~
*bay cried!*
my bunk i/c aka bay wei sheng cried! it was after d 'tekan' session tat he shed his tears. actualli its more about d bunk keys. dun intend to say more abt these. but reali bay, its not ur fault, every single one in d bunk play a part. soli bay.
*d junior commanders*
juz knew tat all d cpl r 86s. which means dey r 1 yr younger den me. not wonder dey all still so lyk kids, expect a few which can simply go die. a' lvl holders indeed haf a diff frm dip holders, 'phd', ite. haiz~ over-mature adam junior. hwx2?
*no jeans...*
niteout on wed's evening. went to town w royston & junyuan. cun find d jeans i spotted weeks ago @topman(suntec). went to wisma, had big mac for dinner & was kana 'suan' by d 2 of dem. find tat jc young boys r so 'ke ai' de, esp junyuan w his 'suan' skill. finalli saw 'junior ang' & his stead, he was kind of tall. tried another pair of jeans, but d cutting is not beri d nice. didn't bought a single stuff. so sad~ helped jieyuan 2 buy tixs @cathay cineleisure. royston & junyuan bought 2 discs each from sembawang music centre.
*no activites~*
a sudden news was released on thurs's ro. due to d recent incident of saf personnel's death, d deputy fleet commander ordered to stop all activites except those to be held under safe conditions, lyk lectures & talks. haha~ down for friday's soc & sat's ecp run. but its kinda serious as almost every week tere wil b incident of death happening within saf, guessed tos recuits in bmtc muz b kinda relaxing @d bunk. no 'xiong' activites but more standy-by bed/area...
*passport*
book-out @5+pm on fri. bought 3cds & went over to safra tampines to extend my passport. suddenli tot of dad, stil rmb once he took a cab down w me in d nite as i ned to go msia d beri xt day, dad owas cr so much for me & d family. keimin kept jioing me to go find him in msia.
*aidong... congrate?*
gotta break a news over here. my most beloved cousin, aidong, who is of same age of me is getting married! at d age of 19+ or rather 20, too earli rite? no choice, d ger is pregnant liao. shotgun marriage! haiz~ c lah, say liao dun anihow playx2. heard from mum tat 'er yi' is damn angri. he cun even support himself so how is he goin to feed a family of 3. regreted tat i didn't find him for chat when i was in msia during block leave. d wedding was lyk shedule on 31 july as told by aunt june yet he still havben break d news to me & my family or rather d majority of my relatives. by xt cny gathering, i will most prob seeing he changing diapers for his son/daughter leh...
p/s: ned get some clothings for d big red day
*ah gu*
beri soon will b a yr liao. d sight of swo balvin singh sometimes remind me of my ah gu who passed away a month aft my dad's death. kind of wanna to cry nw. hate all tis stuffs, hate tat y i muz owas b d strong 1 tat is standing, i oso wanna 2 breakdown. i ned tat shoulder to lean on & d one to comfort me.
*bgr*
d recent news was on tis boy who jumped off when his stead wanted a breakup. touching on bgr, when during youngster age lyk me, bgr is juz part of growing, one muz nt take it so serious till lyk getting married or 3344. yes, it is sweet but tere will somehow b quarrels & eventualli lead to breakup, so we ned to learn & understand. if u thinkin of dying, sori, u r juz too self-fish, ur dad+mum+ur loved ones will cry lyk hell & sob for their whole life. kk, enuf of 'da dao li'.
*mr nkf*
mr tt.durai aka mr nkf reali made headlines aft d ioc & london's attack. indeed, i was juz lyk many others, surprised by his pay & d tap he fixed in his office. d charges he pressed on d st reporter & sph was a wrong choice as it turned d table & revealed all his 'wrong-doings'. most ppl readin tis might alreadi noe wat happening so i wun speak much on it but will juz add a point. being d most 'big' charity organisation in sg, alot other similar organisations alreadi see it 'bu shuang', as tis incident happened, chairman or leader of these organisations started to demand nkf to hand over nkf's money to them for running. wtf, its so 'cruel'. when u r 'down' in troubles, u will find ppl lyk these who come over to stab u a few more times. anw, mr nkf did oso his utmost part in helping d patients all these years yet a mistake he made can realli 'kill' him instantli.
*me...*
ppl in camp commented i look lyk 'beng', dun look lyk jc student, look like smoker, have a nice-built, nvr tink b4 big brain & say tings, 'brave' enuf to tok, 'no big no small', act cute, spy of csm, ha~

random thots^^^
-life is juz a game of experience so juz njoy & haf fun. fooling ard+act cute+zibi=me
-feelings of lyking or loving someone is so sweet & nice. perfect situation for me now, so good.
-money is juz another critical stuff in tis world. which is oso wat i am lacking of.
-congrate to all my ex-polymates + animal family who got their cerf tis wk. tat oso mark 3yrs of friendship.
-d anniversary date for animal family is argreed btwn d gers, 31 august. yipee~
-frens comes & goes, not all will b forever but its d moment tgt tat we muz cherish.

listening to shine's tong ming zhuang ji